On My Birthday

Here is what Father (and Hal) have to say to me today, on my 40th birthday.

Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases.  ~Psalm 103:3

My child, I am still healing ancient wounds in your soul.  The process is slow and often hidden from your view.  But I tell you, of a truth, it is taking place.  You are not marking time and your circumstances are not accidents.  So lift up your head and your heart, and receive each day as a gift.  You do not know the end, but I do, and I am leading you toward My goal for you.     ~Echoes of Eternity, August Twenty-second, Page 179


Cleaning wounds

From Echoes of Eternity, July Twenty-fifth, Page 158.

The blood of Jesus Christ cleanseth us from all sin.  ~1 John 1:7

The wounds of the soul must be cleansed before healing can take place.  The cleansing process is painful for you, because the stains are the result of your sinful choices in the past.  The more you are aware of this, the easier it makes your cooperation with the process.  The light of truth exposes the ugliness of these sores, but the Balm of Gilead then restores lost beauty.  Marvel at the goodness that directs My operation, and do not flinch at the necessary pain.

Once again, Father speaks directly to me through Hal.  Yes, it is painful.  I’ve lived through very few things as painful as this has been.  Yes, it’s the result of my sinful choices – some willfully sinful, others ignorantly so.

Praise and glory and thankfulness to my Father, who is making something beautiful from my pain, rather than letting it be wasted, and who does not tire of reminding me when I am wont to forget.

I am especially grateful for Father’s mercy and grace when I deserve it the least.

The Gift

I used to have complete control over every aspect of my children’s lives.  I homeschooled, so their education was under my purview.  They were with me all day long, so their behavior was managed by me.  I even did my best to manipulate their relationships with each other and with their father.  They mostly had access to only the food I provided them.  Since I of course want only the best for my children, this all meant they received an excellent education, navigated their relationships well, and got lots of healthy food and physical exercise. Continue reading

Put Down the Phone and Back Away Slowly

From Echoes of Eternity by Hal M. Helms, Page 98, May Tenth

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:6,7 Continue reading

Breaking the “No Talk” Rule

Why do I spend so much time sleeping, anesthetizing with sugar and screen time, or procrastinating?  I believe it’s because I am reluctant to face my sin, confess it, and move forward. Continue reading